In trying to keep to my promise of focusing more on Jesus this Easter season, I purged my closet today! Yes, I know you must be thinking that these things could not possibly be related. Let me explain….
Each week I feel as if I am being overtaken by my clothes: clean clothes, dirty clothes, old maternity clothes, accessories, socks that don’t match, the list goes on. These material items stress me out week after week. For some reason I had started to treasure them by developing an attachment to them that I could not seem to shake. These are not highly coveted designer dresses or anything worthy of being coveted by a stranger. These are “memory clothes”. You know exactly what I mean:”Oh, but I wore this sweater all the time when I was pregnant with my daughter; she might want to wear it if she has a baby!” or “This was so cute on me when I was 20; when I get my 20-year-old body back, I will definitely wear it again.”or “I bought this skirt in Spain the first time I ever traveled abroad; If I throw this out it will be like throwing out all those memories I made!”. You get the idea.
Hopefully, you also get the fact that my rationale for keeping these clothes was completely irrational. So how does this relate to focusing more on Jesus? Well, I realized two important points from doing this cleaning. One, I was spending way too much time stressed-out over clothes and sorting clothes. Two, I realized that I was assigning sentiments that should be reserved for loved ones and memories of the heart to pieces of fabric. Here’s why those two things were bad: First, I started to see that the time I was spending being stressed was self-created. This was time I could choose to be in God’s peace. Second, I was treasuring “things” that have no significance. These “things” are not my memories. My memories are my memories! Having an old skirt taking up space in my closet, (that’s too small and will never be worn again) only for the sake of thinking it added value to my life was ludicrous when I started to think about. Throwing it out did not make my memories any less rich, just as keeping it did not enhance them. Now of course there are some things you may keep for sentimentaility: a wedding dress, graduation gown, family heirloom fur coat. However, most of us don’t have an entire closet of those items.
I don’t want to feel tied to my clothes and things that will decay one day. I want to feel more tied to Jesus. I want to more intentionally pursue Jesus in my life here, so that I can lay up treasures for myself there. So Lord, help me live out what you command in Matthew 6:19-21 “Do not lay up for yourselves treasures on earth, where moth and rust destroy and where thieves break in and steal, but lay up for yourselves treasures in heaven, where neither moth nor rust destroys and where thieves do not break in and steal. For where your treasure is, there your heart will be also”.
It was a good Sunday.